Another step...Let's Rejoice!

Easter Sunday, yesterday, brought another round of cleansing and another step in my journey.  I let go of more toxicity in my life.  While I had held on for about a year to those who used to be a part of my circle of friends and family, I let go of some of them yesterday as I purged them from my Facebook account.  Some may think it is mean, malicious and vindictive.  However, for me, it is a cleansing.  These people are not good for my life right now.  I chose to void this one connection amongst us.  Though they are making choices that are not in the best interest of the kids right now, I continue to choose to keep that door open.  Whenever the kids want to contact any of these toxic individuals, I allow them to do so.  I, however, choose to keep my distance so I may keep my health and recovery.

They are still too entrenched in the denial and enabling.  I understand that they do not see it.  Or, if they do, they may feel helpless and unable to escape.  I've been there...I understand!  They, however, do not.  From what I get from them, they feel I am to blame, that I am being mean and vindictive, that I do not see the recovery of Rob.  What they do not see is that the veil of denial is no longer clouding my judgment as it clouds theirs.  I do not hate them for this.  Again, I understand.  I have decided not to invite that toxicity into my life any longer.

They have my phone number.  They have my email address.  If they need or want to contact me, they know how to accomplish that.  I have found that as I cleanse my life of the toxicity that is still present, I become more and more healthy, emotionally, mentally and physically.  I have decided today to take a step in the physical health realm.  It is the one area where I have not focused during the first year of my recovery.  I must begin now so I can take advantage of the wonderful opportunities and positivity that are in my life right now.

This IS the day the Lord has made.  Let us rejoice and be glad in Him.

Hey, I can still post, even if y'all read it later!

Hello, all.  It has been about a month since I last posted.  Unfortunately, I was advised not to continue posting online because of the possible legal implications.  However, I feel that my posts are non-incriminating and they help my recovery in such a profound way that I am going to continue posting.  When the time comes, I will make these public again so that you may read them.

I am thrilled to announce that life is great today.  I still have my great family and friends surrounding me daily with love, support and reality checks.  I also have my former soulmate who continues to surround me with chaos, insanity and jabs which try to elicit a negative response from me.  Thankfully, I have reached a place in my recovery where I am letting go more and more.  I am less and less resentful of his stupid choices that are not in the best interest of the children.  I will continue to let him make choices that benefit him and his girlfriend (whom, he told the custody investigator, he is not sure he wants to marry).  What a hoot!

Anyway, I am so very, very thankful for the serenity, calm and peace to which God leads me on a nearly daily basis.  I am thankful for the new job I have for next fall.  I am thankful (and thrilled) that I have an exciting project at school which the girls have helped me to plan.  They have come up with some really neat ideas - I can't wait to see them implemented.

I will post again later.  I have some important emails to send tonight so I don't forget:)